I think we all have this once in awhile...the feeling that you've bitten off more than you can chew. I actually think this is probably quite normal. But it seems that in the past few months I've been struggling with this more than usual. There are a number of contributing factors I suppose. For the first time in my life I am in what I would call a serious relationship and now actually living with someone. Suddenly, it seems like we have twice the number of social commitments. Birthday parties to go to (which in Holland, are not missable events), visits with family members etc. Since we've moved to my area of the country, we have to make sure that we make a trip every once in awhile to see his family and that takes up a whole day on the weekend!
In all fairness though, the biggest factor in the past few months has been my decision to train for a marathon. Normally I was someone who occasionally ran when I felt like it, but now I have what feels like an obligation to myself to run. Sometimes, even when I've been feeling sick or way too tired, or whatever. Well, this weekend I was away for a course all weekend and then back Sunday evening. I promised myself I would run Monday after work. What exactly was I thinking? A weekend of little sleep, a fully booked Monday at work and then go running for 3 hours?? Needless to say, I got home and wanted to cry at the thought of going for run. Luckily today I have a later start at work, could sleep in and hopefully the rest of this week I will be back on track. I'm trying to not feel too guilty about lowering my expectations for myself. Luckily I have a boyfriend who keeps telling me it'll all be fine even though I really feel I've let myself down.
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